I literally just did this oops.
Finding myself at a strange standstill. I believe I’ve reached a point where I’ve grown tired of the things that I thought I would never tire of. I am questioning the choices I make so often, even those of which I have come to recognize as routine. I keep checking myself for stranger things I never noticed were there and want to change but at the same time do not want to. I’m confused and I am trying to figure myself out. God forbid I ever do a little soul searching every now and then. I can’t help but feel like I’m crazy for considering, but I really want to change. For me. I’m going back to the path of selfishness—not that I ever stopped doing so—and striving to achieve the better side of myself that I’m pretty sure I am completely capable of achieving. I don’t know, I just want to find myself in all this insanity.